For a long time I haven't been able to understand my thoughts and reasons to why I could not relate to people. I couldn't understand my constant mood swings between being so happy that I could face everything, to being so sad that I wanted to die. Past relationships with friends and partners have crumbled because of my actions. My arguments always starting with "go away" which I thought obviously to me meant ' no, I need you'. I was constantly confused to why people couldn't understand me, when I couldn't even understand myself. I don't know who I am and what purpose I have here. Getting diagnosed with borderline personality disorder helped explain what was going on. I finally knew it wasn't because I was a selfish person, who didn't understand others, who didn't know what they wanted or who they were. It is a disorder which occurred due to my childhood and has allowed me to understand why I am the way I am. It finally allowed me to get the help I need, realising that it can be easily treated with specialised therapy. It also made me realise I am not alone. So many individuals have bpd! Hence, I hope this video explains what bpd is helps someone else who may be experiencing similar symptoms/thoughts/circumstances to myself. You are not alone.
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